Friday, October 1, 2010

natural bitch.

so i was sitting in my solitude, munching no ridge UTZ and sour cream and onion dip and i realized that i had a few things that i wanted to get off of my chest about this whole hair thing...

first of all, i want to know what everyone's gripe is with natural hair?  i admit, i used to be the one talkin' bout "this natural bitch blah blah eww" but i never really had any justification for why i didn't like natural hair.  for some odd reason, i had brainwashed myself into believing that Natural = Sexy, and i know why, 
NATURAL BITCHES BE TAKING "NATURAL" TOO DAMN FAR !! 
i completely understand not wanting chemicals in your hair because even when i did get perms, i only got them 2x a year. what i don't get is why Natural means that they have to ditch all of society's forms of "sex appeal" and  i do NOT agree with that.  i have seen, and been inspired, by plenty of women with full and healthy and un-processed hair that exuded ample amounts of sexy. 

thus bringing me to my next point, i've seen more kinky bushes than i've ever cared to see in my life, and not only that, but their hair seems less than healthy.  natural does NOT equal healthy.  a huge misconception about going natural is that all one has to do is hack off all of the relaxed ends or Amber Rose it.  WRONG !! like WTF?!! it's not even original anymore, all these bitches with fried hair from going blonde or relaxing their hair too often think that they're doing something when in all actuality, they're still using the same piss-poor products like cheap shampoos and conditioners and olive oil products that do nothing for the kink or curl pattern and simply weigh the hair down.  they don't take the time to look up natural hair remedies, protective styles, better products geared towards hair type, and reconstructive products to save their hair before going under the scissors.  

which is why i've done my research and i plan on implementing a healthy hair care routine because i want my hair to grow healthy.  so i won't be going "natural", per-say, i will be going HEALTHY. =D

i plan to still straighten my hair when i get tired of the natural curls and i will still be wearing my make-up and pumps, and dressing in a way that makes me feel sexy as a woman.  now, my hair has been going natural (growing out my relaxer) since 2008 and i have an entire new head of hair that i have less than neglected.  it's a miracle that my hair is at the length that it is now, after the dye, coloring, straightening, weaves, and other brutal things i've done to maintain a specific look.  sooooo !! i am super excited and i refuse to be discouraged about going natural!! my hair had the strength to grow through being neglected and barely getting trimmed, so i can't even imagine how much hair growth i'm about to have now that i'm starting healthier hair practices. =D

not only is this a better way for me to save my hair but i believe that it is going to be a way for me to claim my own identity.  on just my first day of really coaxing my curls and wearing a bush, i got tons of compliments that really shocked me because i think my hair is a tad bit lack luster.  but, at any rate, it was such a confidence booster!! i will, however, need to shift my own idea of "beauty" from long flowing weaves to my own healthy tresses in whatever style i decide to do.  
i will also be able to work out more often !! =D which is great because another reason for my lacking confidence is that i've gained a little bit of a pudge =( but!! now that i don't have to worry about sweating my hair out, i can work out more often and maybe become a little less inhibited about my hair in intimate settings ;] 
also, healthy hair needs a healthy diet to promote optimal hair growth so i plan on eating healthier.  and weave used to break out my face around the edges and now that i will be wearing my own hair out and using natural products, i think that my skin can benefit from this too :] 

as you can see, for me, this is a lifestyle change more than just a hair journey.  

so i will not be considering this "going natural" i will be considering it as a conscious health decision and a Healthy Hair Journey.  

here are a few of the products that i will be using to maintain optimal hair growth, a healthy scalp, less shedding and breakage, better straightening techniques, and healthier curls.  

since i just recently too out a weave, i used this reconstructing conditioner by Cibu

on days that i choose to wear my hair straight, i condition with Redken Smooth Down
i SWEAR by this conditioner and shampoo set because it really relaxes the curl without adding weight to the hair 

when i wear my hair curly, i will be using the Kinky-Curly Knot Today leave-in detangling conditioner to prep my curls for the KC Curling Custard

one of my fellow morganites swears by this conditioner and claims that it promoted rapid hair growth, i will be giving the Cantu Shea Butter leave-in conditioner a try

and her hair is DOWN her back...

i found in a youtube video that 100% coconut oil repairs dead and damaged ends and reduces shedding dramatically. 
i will be doing oil treatments with this as well as smoothing it through my hair when i wear it curly 

yet another product i found during my youtube stalk of products and the Aveeno Nourish + Style smoothing cream left the hair smoothed, shiny, and clumped the curls together

yet ANOTHER (lol) product i saw on youtube that was used to promote a healthier scalp and hair growth.  

the video that i'd previously posted featured this product and i am OBSESSED with how it made her curls look.. cant wait to use this stuff !!

me and Beee* just recently got Miss Jessie's Curly Pudding and tried it out. we're giving it a trial and error period of 7 days and will be "reviewing" it soon !

oh, and due to this lack lustrous red blonde thing i've got going on, i will be rinsing my hair to a chocolate brown later this week. finger crossed =X

i also use a sulfate free shampoo to cleanse my hair and i will only be cleansing once a month.  i plan on doing cold washes with the Cantu conditioner and the Knot Today (alternating, of course)
i also bought a new blow dryer with a diffuser attachment because it locks in moisture faster than air drying, promotes shine and bounce, and cuts the drying time of hair in MORE THAN HALF !!

my ultimate goal is to have LONG, FULL hair, that is all MINE and i will be able to greatly diminish or eliminate the want for weaves.  i want to be able to have a full and bouncy messy bun, and long edges.  

wish me luck !!



♥ --Les


Quickie




just a few pix of the beginning of my healthy hair journey =D 

and the video that inspired me 



^^^^^^^that's my goal hair^^^^^^^^^

A Step Towards Me.

Last night I was overly excited to try Ms. Jessie's Curly Pudding. Since the very ends of my hair are relaxed i could not use the product as a wash and go. Instead I decided to do Bantu knots. I was excited. I knew that this would just come out perfect.

Well... It came out far from perfect. I was running late for class, tried to throw it in the style that I thought I would be most comfortable with and it looked horrible. I began to get a little teary eyed because I was discouraged. I did not have a clue as to what to do with myself. I decided against going to class because I looked a mess. I sent a text to my boyfriend telling him how I felt and he said "Be yourself, you're beautiful."

So... I spent about ten whole minutes just looking at myself in the mirror. A tear rolled down my face and I thought, "What is wrong with this picture?" The answer was, "my hair." Then i thought, "Well my hair can't be the only thing making me feel this way." But as i sat and stared longer, i realized that it was. I thought about what Chris told me and began to believe it. I looked at myself, and saw that i was indeed, beautiful.

After this, i walked away from the mirror and did some other things to get ready for the day. I didn't take my hair into consideration at all. Five minutes later, I went back to the mirror, styled my hair, and I LOVED IT. I looked at myself and I LOVED ME. It was way more than the hair that had me feeling this way, it was my confidence. It felt really good, but I hope I can feel this feeling everyday... 






















Thursday, September 30, 2010

First Day of Work

Today begins my first day of work, and its not HOOTERS :( 
I'm going to be selling shoes -_-
I hope it goes ok, because i dont have a clue as to what I'm doing.
I hope my coworkers and managers are actually nice too. Whatever the case... I need to make some MONEY.
No more of this for a while :(

-_______-

this morning i woke up to a MONSOON. 

prayerfully there is no class. 


















no. seriously, it's not playin outside. 

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

ohh, Girl, you got dat "Good" hair !!

soo, tonight, me and my Beee* (that's what i call my best friends because they're beyond just friends) sat in the living room and had a hair epiphany.  after much consideration, and "research" through Black Hair magazine, Beee* and i decided that we wanted to ditch society's idea of flat ironed beauty and opt for a more natural, thicker, healthier look.  

we decided that the only reason that we wear the long flowing weaves, and the straightened out hair is because we feel as though it is what is expected.  now, i cannot, and will not, speak for her, but this is how i feel...

my hair has more than defined me.  in other words, i'm not wearing the hair, the hair is wearing me.  i couldn't go a day without making sure my hair looked perfect; if my hair wasn't done, the outfit wasn't done.  most of the time, i'd had a premeditated hair style designated for each and EVERY outfit in my closet.  chunky sweaters got long and flowy, flirty crop tops got soft, bushy curls, "club" outfits got sleek and sexy; i was a ROBOT.  

i was not living. 

so a few weeks ago, i sat down and thought about why i do the things that i do (or the lack there of) to my hair.  my poor hair has been through it ALL !! color, weaves, a LOT of weaves, straightening, excess heat, i've even had a relaxer before.  and now that i am all natural, idk wtf to do with my hair!! my poor locks are STRESSED and it's getting to me (which would make sense since i held my hair to such high standards)  

here's a few pics of me throughout the past 5 months. . .





 as you can see, i went THROUGH it !! 
i realized that i went through so many different style options because i've been surrounded and influenced by different people.  my boyfriend has hair CASCADING (yes, cascadinggggg) down his back in thick, healthy, natural dread locks.  my Beees* have either long relaxed hair or a long, luxurious weave.  i'm at a crossroads. i feel like if i'm not trying to au naturel myself just from being around him then i'm trying to glam the f*%# up because i'm surrounded by beyonce-esque beees* .. whatever the case may be, i need my own identity and i believe that it may start with my hair.  hair transformations can be very liberating for women and i believe that i am no different.. 
i am currently trying to go darker and all natural so i'll try and log my "hair journey" lol

so with that being said... 

wish me luck !!


and patience, because it is a virtue that i do not possess 


-Les!!


1000 miles seems pretty far, but they've got trains & planes & cars...


"You've just gotta be tough."
We eventually hang up the phone, and I'm sad because, what else can he say? Somebody has got to be the backbone. There can't be two pussies in the relationship. But its a cover up because I know for sure that deep down inside, he misses me as much as I miss him.

What is a long distance relationship? How does it work? Why even be together if you can't REALLY be together?

A long distance relationship is a relationship that exists when the partners are separated by a considerable distance. The function of it, I can't really say, but I'm doing it. I think this is the obstacle that God put in my life, and it seems as if everyday I learn another reason why it is worth fighting for. I wont go into detail but as a result, I'm wanting to live my life more in the right way and I'm growing stronger every day

"Distance is not for the fearful. It's for the bold. Its for those willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time for the one they love. Its for those who know a good thing when they see it, even if they don't see it nearly enough..."
i would like to start off my blog by letting everyone know about my other blog which can serve as a quick little look into the sicker side of my mind, if you will.  it is a bit more private and not as frequent as i hope this one will be. but, nonetheless! check it out !!  
here are a few blogs that i check on the daily 

www.therealkesh.blogspot.com
www.kanyeuniversecity.com
www.lookbook.nu
www.fuckyeahtattoos.tumblr.com
www.missmeanshoe.com
www.wherdidugetthat.com 

no particular reason why i love these sites, they just capture my attention =]

enjoy !!

-Les