First Day of Work

Today begins my first day of work, and its not HOOTERS :( 
I'm going to be selling shoes -_-
I hope it goes ok, because i dont have a clue as to what I'm doing.
I hope my coworkers and managers are actually nice too. Whatever the case... I need to make some MONEY.

No more of this for a while :(

-_______-

this morning i woke up to a MONSOON. 

prayerfully there is no class. 

no. seriously, it's not playin outside. 

ohh, Girl, you got dat "Good" hair !!

soo, tonight, me and my Beee* (that's what i call my best friends because they're beyond just friends) sat in the living room and had a hair epiphany.  after much consideration, and "research" through Black Hair magazine, Beee* and i decided that we wanted to ditch society's idea of flat ironed beauty and opt for a more natural, thicker, healthier look.  

we decided that the only reason that we wear the long flowing weaves, and the straightened out hair is because we feel as though it is what is expected.  now, i cannot, and will not, speak for her, but this is how i feel...

my hair has more than defined me.  in other words, i'm not wearing the hair, the hair is wearing me.  i couldn't go a day without making sure my hair looked perfect; if my hair wasn't done, the outfit wasn't done.  most of the time, i'd had a premeditated hair style designated for each and EVERY outfit in my closet.  chunky sweaters got long and flowy, flirty crop tops got soft, bushy curls, "club" outfits got sleek and sexy; i was a ROBOT.  

i was not living. 

so a few weeks ago, i sat down and thought about why i do the things that i do (or the lack there of) to my hair.  my poor hair has been through it ALL !! color, weaves, a LOT of weaves, straightening, excess heat, i've even had a relaxer before.  and now that i am all natural, idk wtf to do with my hair!! my poor locks are STRESSED and it's getting to me (which would make sense since i held my hair to such high standards)  

here's a few pics of me throughout the past 5 months. . .

 as you can see, i went THROUGH it !! 

i realized that i went through so many different style options because i've been surrounded and influenced by different people.  my boyfriend has hair CASCADING (yes, cascadinggggg) down his back in thick, healthy, natural dread locks.  my Beees* have either long relaxed hair or a long, luxurious weave.  i'm at a crossroads. i feel like if i'm not trying to au naturel myself just from being around him then i'm trying to glam the f*%# up because i'm surrounded by beyonce-esque beees* .. whatever the case may be, i need my own identity and i believe that it may start with my hair.  hair transformations can be very liberating for women and i believe that i am no different.. 

i am currently trying to go darker and all natural so i'll try and log my "hair journey" lol

so with that being said... 

wish me luck !!

and patience, because it is a virtue that i do not possess 

-Les!!

1000 miles seems pretty far, but they've got trains & planes & cars...

"You've just gotta be tough."
We eventually hang up the phone, and I'm sad because, what else can he say? Somebody has got to be the backbone. There can't be two pussies in the relationship. But its a cover up because I know for sure that deep down inside, he misses me as much as I miss him.

What is a long distance relationship? How does it work? Why even be together if you can't REALLY be together?

A long distance relationship is a relationship that exists when the partners are separated by a considerable distance. The function of it, I can't really say, but I'm doing it. I think this is the obstacle that God put in my life, and it seems as if everyday I learn another reason why it is worth fighting for. I wont go into detail but as a result, I'm wanting to live my life more in the right way and I'm growing stronger every day

"Distance is not for the fearful. It's for the bold. Its for those willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time for the one they love. Its for those who know a good thing when they see it, even if they don't see it nearly enough..."

i would like to start off my blog by letting everyone know about my other blog which can serve as a quick little look into the sicker side of my mind, if you will.  it is a bit more private and not as frequent as i hope this one will be. but, nonetheless! check it out !!  

here are a few blogs that i check on the daily 

www.therealkesh.blogspot.com

www.kanyeuniversecity.com

www.lookbook.nu

www.fuckyeahtattoos.tumblr.com

www.missmeanshoe.com

www.wherdidugetthat.com 

no particular reason why i love these sites, they just capture my attention =]

enjoy !!

-Les